Decisions, decisions, decisions....
They constitute what determines our fate. Executing a decision is just like digging a hole to look for gold. If you dig a bit and give up early, no gold for you. Later on in life you will think to yourself in regret, "Shit I should have kept digging. I would have probably found gold." But if you keep digging--gold may just be another inch deeper--you will probably hit a gold vein. Later on in life you will think to yourself in contentment, "Yes... I tried and I reaped the fruits of effort." But what if, you never hit that gold vein? You just keep digging because you hope to reap the fruits of effort one day. What if that day never comes? You have dug so deep that you cannot get out, let alone dig yourself out. The only way out of the grave you have dug for yourself is to keep digging. Why? Well you keep digging because you now hope to hit an underground water channel that will flood your hole so you can float to the surface to freedom, but then again you know finding gold would still be a nice plus. If you get lucky, you will find gold before finding the water channel, floating to the surface a happy man. Later on in life you will think to yourself in total satisfaction, "Perseverance has its rewards." If you find the water channel before gold, your free, but you don't have what you want. Later on in life you will think to yourself in both acknowledgment and regret, "Though I failed, I now know that finding gold there was impossible from the start. At least I tried..."
Monday, October 27, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
What Do Dreams Mean?
I wake up, think to myself "Shit it's still dark," and check the clock, 4:08 am... Damn it all.
Don't you ever wonder what your dreams mean? I do... Certain cognitive researchers say that dreams represent what we are thinking about subconsciously, which can in a way point out malign and benign stuff that you notice subconsciously. In a way, my mother believes some dreams serve as prognostics. I believe both ideas are accurate in regards to dreams.
The difference between good and bad dreams? When I have good dreams, I don't wake up during a good dream because I want to see the ending of the good dream. I hope that these dreams do come true. When I have bad dreams, I wake up in the middle of it, sit there, think about what just happened, and hope it doesn't happen. I pray that these dreams don't come true. After a disheartening dream, it really sucks to sit there and think about it. Not only are you wasting precious shut-eye time, but also you feel worse by the second--till you doze off.
Apparently I was lucky enough to wake up 4:08 am, from a dream. I dreamed about a girl who I don't think I know in reality, yet for some odd reason, I care about this girl who I don't know. In the dream, I learned just how much it blows to ask a person you care about, what he/she thinks about you, only to receive a honest answer which basically means, "Everything you saw and felt was just my good intentions. I don't think I will ever see you as a friend, let alone something more." Then again, it was not really a stab at my heart because I always picture that stuff in reality would end like this. A blunt, bitter ending.
The dream, an omen or not, probably just registered what I notice in reality. I don't know what it really means. But I do know that the rivers of fate diverge regardless of my efforts to redirect my river. So what I can do now is sit tight and let the current carry me, letting fate do its work.
Don't you ever wonder what your dreams mean? I do... Certain cognitive researchers say that dreams represent what we are thinking about subconsciously, which can in a way point out malign and benign stuff that you notice subconsciously. In a way, my mother believes some dreams serve as prognostics. I believe both ideas are accurate in regards to dreams.
The difference between good and bad dreams? When I have good dreams, I don't wake up during a good dream because I want to see the ending of the good dream. I hope that these dreams do come true. When I have bad dreams, I wake up in the middle of it, sit there, think about what just happened, and hope it doesn't happen. I pray that these dreams don't come true. After a disheartening dream, it really sucks to sit there and think about it. Not only are you wasting precious shut-eye time, but also you feel worse by the second--till you doze off.
Apparently I was lucky enough to wake up 4:08 am, from a dream. I dreamed about a girl who I don't think I know in reality, yet for some odd reason, I care about this girl who I don't know. In the dream, I learned just how much it blows to ask a person you care about, what he/she thinks about you, only to receive a honest answer which basically means, "Everything you saw and felt was just my good intentions. I don't think I will ever see you as a friend, let alone something more." Then again, it was not really a stab at my heart because I always picture that stuff in reality would end like this. A blunt, bitter ending.
The dream, an omen or not, probably just registered what I notice in reality. I don't know what it really means. But I do know that the rivers of fate diverge regardless of my efforts to redirect my river. So what I can do now is sit tight and let the current carry me, letting fate do its work.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Promises and Claims
An interesting thing, many people tend to say or promise things that they may not be able to fulfill, which is pretty lame. What's the point of saying something that you can't live up to? It is not when someone can't fulfill something that bothers me, it is when someone doesn't take responsibility for their words.
Words usually imply a promise or claim. Whether it is telling a friend, "I will help you out," or "Hey I will take a bullet for you," or even "I love you," it is a promise in its own way.
An example, to elucidate the matters, I hear my friends frequently say, "I will take a bullet for you!" Well it is great to know that someone says he/she will, but that is a false promise because all humans are selfish to the extent at which they prefer to protect themselves. No I am not being cynical, I am being realistic. In addition, it is retarded to take a bullet for someone because if your timing is off, you may either be too early or too late, resulting in a failed attempt. It is better to tackle them so both of you are safe for that moment. I tell my friends, "I will try my best to protect you." I use this statement instead of the other because this one is not set, I am not sure if I will be able to take that bullet or chicken out during the gun pointing. In a sense, it is basically not promising anything. I am being honest. I am not going to make an open-ended statement, in essence, lie to you
Another example, I am afraid to say, "I love you," to people other than family. Why? Well, who the hell can honestly say what love is, especially at this age? Though I am convinced that I do love them inside, I won't say so, because I am not entirely sure that it is real. There is no reason to make a claim that I , in a way, cannot prove.
Every word said has an implication to it, and it is ideal for people to take responsibility for what they say. This is why I choose my words with care nowadays to ensure I am truthful to everyone and to myself.
Words usually imply a promise or claim. Whether it is telling a friend, "I will help you out," or "Hey I will take a bullet for you," or even "I love you," it is a promise in its own way.
An example, to elucidate the matters, I hear my friends frequently say, "I will take a bullet for you!" Well it is great to know that someone says he/she will, but that is a false promise because all humans are selfish to the extent at which they prefer to protect themselves. No I am not being cynical, I am being realistic. In addition, it is retarded to take a bullet for someone because if your timing is off, you may either be too early or too late, resulting in a failed attempt. It is better to tackle them so both of you are safe for that moment. I tell my friends, "I will try my best to protect you." I use this statement instead of the other because this one is not set, I am not sure if I will be able to take that bullet or chicken out during the gun pointing. In a sense, it is basically not promising anything. I am being honest. I am not going to make an open-ended statement, in essence, lie to you
Another example, I am afraid to say, "I love you," to people other than family. Why? Well, who the hell can honestly say what love is, especially at this age? Though I am convinced that I do love them inside, I won't say so, because I am not entirely sure that it is real. There is no reason to make a claim that I , in a way, cannot prove.
Every word said has an implication to it, and it is ideal for people to take responsibility for what they say. This is why I choose my words with care nowadays to ensure I am truthful to everyone and to myself.
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